FIND THE FIRE

"Nothing is more discouraging for a soldier than to find, when he has dealt his adversary a mighty blow with his sword, that the blade twists or that the hilt comes off in his hand" - The Daily Telegraph, October 1895

JANUARY '10
TRAINING DIARY

I did a 20 min Kettlebell set before work this morning.
Guilt i guess. Whatever
I currently feel like puking my breakfast back up. We'll see how i feel later.
I really believe that up until now i have been training because of nothing more than fits and bursts of enthusiasm, not determination!
I have spent my entire adult life indulging myself. I eat what i want and exercise when i want.
I never stop eating until i am full. I never do anything unless it's fun.
I need to learn to get satisfaction from achievement. I need to accept that this may never be fun. It may never feel like an indulgence.
This is supposed to be a challenge. I need to learn a new way of thinking